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| alright well! im done with xanga cause its stupid!! and MYSPACE ROX!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!! lol so go to www.myspace.com/smalls15.com see ya'll l8r! | | |
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--In a little home, all alone; there once lived a girl, beautiful, five feet seven, her hairs had lovely curls. She loved a guy, more than she ever loved her life, and waited for the day to be recognized as his wife. She treated him like a gift sent from heavens above, & often said, he taught her the real meaning of love. She longed to be in his arms and hold onto his hand, he was everything to her - a lover and a best friend. He also loved that girl from the bottom of his heart, he had a strong belief, that none can do them part. Only obstacle he had was, he was too far from her, maybe 530 miles, I'm unsure what the numbers were. At times she talked to him about one of her friends, said he's the one on whom she can always depend. He asked her, "Oh! Well, then who am I to you???" She replied "You've made my dreams come true. You're the one whom I think of all day
and night, you've filled my life with the happiness and delight. Whenever I close my eyes, It's only you that I see, I love you more than my life, you're everything to me." It was her best friend, the girl often talked about, Something's going on, now the guy started to doubt. At times, he was like a glass with anger filled up to the brim, He thought an affair was going on between her & him. At times he thought how much she speaks is true, he wanted her to prove when she said "I love you." he often asked, "why don't you value what you say?" and she always replied, "why do you feel that way?" The distance between them had made a serious effect, and soon, like the start, nothing was now perfect. The girl's effort to stay with him didn't last too long, lovely melody of her life turned into a monotonous song. With thoughts of doubt each and every passing day, their trust was breaking & their love was fading away. Time went on slowly and nothing seemed to be fine, doubts in the guy's mind kept showing their shine. She missed him, and her nights were passing in a cry, She sent him many letters but he didn't send any reply. No words can explain, the pain she was going through, She didn't know how to talk to him or what else to do. She talked with one of his friend & asked him number, but he wasn't interested to talk and kept ignoring her. poor she! tried to search for him in things all around, and at the time she needed him, he was never found. He never showed his concern for her or ever cared. The pain she was living in couldn't be compared. The girl was really hurt and she commited suicide, The news next day read, "A girl, 20, yesterday died" In a room locked from inside, her body was found, stained in blood next to the bed, lying upon the ground. In her left hand, she was holding her suicide note, upon the letter, there was the last poem she wrote: "When you'll read this, I would not be here with you, but this doesn't mean, that my love was never true, Who was that guy, Honey? He was nothing to me, and you were my life, I just wish you could see... "I will love you for an eternity.", was your promise. but you did not trust my love for you and I hate this. You have now broken the promises you once made, So I am going far away by a cut with this blade. I loved you with all my heart and I will forever do, but what's the purpose of living, if I'm not with you. Maybe I wasn't your girl or you were unable to see, that you were my life, you meant everything to me. With one last wish, that I could once see your face, I'm going to heavens above, in the God's embrace. Remember, no one can love you the way I loved you, every word of promise I said, was cent percent true. This is my last present to you, for what you've done, I am going to a place, from where I will never return. | | |
| man idk what im supposed to do! i finally find a church that i want to join because i fit in sooo perfectly but the church believes in things that i dont because i was raised in a differnt church. like jeans.....i would have to give up jeans and well i just dont think i can do that i mean i want to join soo badly like its just im not sure.....
just not sure........
signed,,,
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| SIGH!!!! ......too much just too much! lol but im loving it!
okay so finals are next week and am i ready hahaha NO! of course not me actually ready for something sheesh. so yea but i mean school its going ...uh...hmm...okay? with a few exceptions on the iffy side lol
but last night after the craft show *which was really fun when we started to clean up.....blake almost killed me* haha but yea me morgin blake thomas casey and bobby all went to the movies to see AEON FLUX.....dont go see it just dont. But casey and i were beyond bored so we left which i felt bad about because of morgin which i was right cause she got mad and then we were okay but she was pissed at case and it was just a LONG night but it was still good because after all that casey and i drove around for a bit lots of laughs it was highly needed but
CASEY AND MORGIN IM NEVER DIRECTING YOU 2 TO TALK EVER AGAIN
lol you need to learn to get over things on your own im not always around! yet somehow i seem to always be there...hmm ANYWAY! well l8r, if my dad comes home, im gunna go shopping for 2 little girls from ann windle for our party on tuesday its gunna be GREAT!
HOPE EVERYONE HAD A GREAT WEEKEND!!!!!!
--stacie
QUOTES:::
When you're down i may not be able to pick you back up but i promise i'll be willing to lay right down next to you
My theory is that if I kept my distance, maybe you would see what you were missing.
once you fall in love, your not supposed to fall out.
do you think the reason we fight so much is because we can't face the fact that we might still be in love?
you'll forever be my heart's strongest weakness.
The truth is I miss you with all my heart and I can't stand the sound of your name because it hurts too much. The fact that I may never see you again makes it even worse. I was and still am completely and utterly in love with you. You make me feel like no one else can. You always know how to make me smile and not one of those fake smiles I always have on, but one of those that when you're around, I can never seem to get rid of and the worst thing is that when you push me away or I feel that way, you're hurting me, hurting us and every time I see you, I just want to jump in your arms, in hopes that things will be okay. But now that you're gone, and maybe not coming back, I need you to know, just how much I love you and just how much, I need you and pray that you do that right back. I hope you hear this because will all my heart, I love you. I miss you. I need you. And I'm not afraid to tell you
Life is about trusting your feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories and learning from the past and realizing that people always change.
If you want to know where your heart is, look where your mind goes when it wanders.
The truth is we only hide because we want to be found. We only walk away because we want to see who will follow us. And we only break our hearts to see who will mend them.
At first you think it's great you're talking to him again. But then you start talking about things that happened before. Like bringing back old memories and then you realize how much you really miss him and you get to thinking you really want him back. But then you remember he doesn't need you, like you need him and it hurts.
Never regret anything because at one point it was exactly what you wanted.
Isn't it funny how when we want it the most, you can't have it and when you have it, you don't care and once you lose it, you'd do anything to get it back.
Sometimes it's hard to tell the wishing from the well.
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